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I have been having much suicidal thoughts this week, had trouble to do anything but working, exercising a bit the past weeks. That is depressing, I have much anger, frustration as well as sadness, despair within me, I am working on venting it with my writing.I havent done it at all for a while, been too exhausted and busy. I am also working on my website. www.priestessofthegoddess.n.nu I will focus more on my wild life wild cats painting set an deadline and following it through. With working fulltime and working on my art.it doesnt leave much time for volontaire work, not that any of the groups here are right for me. Cause I wanna save the rainforests and save the endangered animals protect all animals. I dont have much energy, so I need to focus and prioritize better with my time. I feel that I am of better use working on my art, being active online, donating money when i can to my causes. I probably should discuss it with the gods before making such decision. I havent been active since before I went on my trip this spring. It was always such a bad energys around some of these people especially in the group place meetings. Much bitterness and  anger I suppose, after awhile it felt the energy made me sick and I felt very much aloof very different from the others.