camillanightshade

I was at the Hills of Brosarp yesterday. It felt much better this time, then the last time, even if it was much, much colder. I was only there a few hours but the Gods were peased. I have been asked to do this near every sabbat for awhile. It was cloudy, the sun came later awhile. I yearn for spring. I have started spring cleaning/ cleansing getting ride of stuff I dont need both material and stuff within. Last week as I called on The Morrigan I felt inspired to do art in her honor in a special way. The subject of the art felt odd and strange i wouldnt do it if I werent pushed. as I did this art, used these colours that i felt i should use, I got euphoria and I danced around infront of my art. I was so happy. A few hours later the euphoria had turned to panicanxiety, so I went to bed. The images i painted looked strange the feelings very delusional. 
After a while I saw that the paintings were images of my own pain. She was there to help me get through that. I have also been with Brigid a bit, called on Her. It feels good. I still have much obessive thoughts and ideas, stuff that I am unable to let go off- thought patters delusions. hopefully it will pass. Hope that the changes that are here, is for the better. It feels great to be painting a lot. i will deal with my obessive ideas and fantasies in my story fantasy world 1 i think. i just dont have time for it. But it may be something I need to prioritize, perhaps that could help me get ride of it. I just dont wanna dwell in the dark shit more then neccessarry. I wanna feel good, be happy have fun.