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[camillanightshade]

Had a a meeting with my boss and unemploymentagency today, she will put in good words for me on some other jobs, I will have her as reference. That is wonder, she thinks I am doing a great job there. She had nothing to complain about me, I need to be more careful about some things in work. It is wonderful that she cares about me and want to help me. I really think she is honest. I know earlier bosses have seemed like that, but never helped in anyway. And with boss i have on this work I have been at my worst- so pissed I break something hit someone, so panicy that I could cry, wanted to escape from there, but didnt do that of course. I just cooled my ange as well as hid my tears. panic. I have been really good at learning to handle stress at work there, handle the emotions that comes when I am overloaded with stress. So in a way stressful work is doing some good lol.

I called the beaurycracy again and tried to fix things, so will see what happens. I am working tomorrow again. I had been panicy all day cause of the new owners to the bakery, the meeting, my future. So when I came home I cried, send out some cv to a few jobs. I answred some, meditated cried again. Drank some st Johns wort tea. Tried to focus on drawing, it was hard, but felt pushed to continue. Now I am just tired, will go too sleep soon.