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Spiritual adventures
Jan. 7th, 2011 06:23 pmI have had some spiritual experiences. I am only retelling those that are real, not some fantasy or delusion. Last week had an experience with Hecate, we talked, got some things straighten out. After that it have felt easier to live, be me. Much what I experience as constant presence and talkings from spirits or divine is gone. Like a door is closed and wall broken down or something. It was very nice to talk to Hecate, I have had many questions over the year about our past relationship, when I followed Her. It felt great to get some answers. She wanted to meet me more, and I agreed to that gladly. So I will see Her once a month.
Yesterday I did a ritual to The Morrigan, Her feast day. It was very nice. She seemed to enjoy being with me as well. She gave me some new demands, one of it was to go back to Hills of Brosarp either around my birthday which is the newmoon in march or on the stormfullmoon, spring equinox. I was like I can do that, but then it must be spring. I dont travel that far (3 hours)to walk around in snow all day when I have it in the woodland as well outside Malmo. Where I usually travel for my monthly outdoor rituals. If the wheater is nice, it would be good for me to get out in the nature do some rituals, dance, chant, meditate, paint. Better then to feel sorry for myself cause I dont have anyone to party with, feeling so depressed and sometimes even suicidal. Since I now dance and chant before do rituals it feels more like I am partying. It will still be cold in march but if I am lucky it can be 10-12 degrees. I said will not spend the night there I will do that in the summer. She seemed ok with that. I must be better at exercising so I can hike and walk more outside in spring and summer. I sure feel more motivated.
Today I meditated in the morning and called on Ceridwen. I focused on the art I have made the last months, some of the stuff was so bad that I only saved it cause She asked me to. Some of the stuff was pretty good but needs to work on more. She wants me to do the drawing down the moon once a week so She can paint with me. It sounds éxiting. I think it could be good for me to do that. I have when through all my art and drawings, fixed what can be fixed, saved what is worth saving and throwed away the rest. Now I am drawing, drinking pineaple juice. I have been throwing away loads of stuff done some cleansing and newmoon rituals as well this week.
Yesterday I did a ritual to The Morrigan, Her feast day. It was very nice. She seemed to enjoy being with me as well. She gave me some new demands, one of it was to go back to Hills of Brosarp either around my birthday which is the newmoon in march or on the stormfullmoon, spring equinox. I was like I can do that, but then it must be spring. I dont travel that far (3 hours)to walk around in snow all day when I have it in the woodland as well outside Malmo. Where I usually travel for my monthly outdoor rituals. If the wheater is nice, it would be good for me to get out in the nature do some rituals, dance, chant, meditate, paint. Better then to feel sorry for myself cause I dont have anyone to party with, feeling so depressed and sometimes even suicidal. Since I now dance and chant before do rituals it feels more like I am partying. It will still be cold in march but if I am lucky it can be 10-12 degrees. I said will not spend the night there I will do that in the summer. She seemed ok with that. I must be better at exercising so I can hike and walk more outside in spring and summer. I sure feel more motivated.
Today I meditated in the morning and called on Ceridwen. I focused on the art I have made the last months, some of the stuff was so bad that I only saved it cause She asked me to. Some of the stuff was pretty good but needs to work on more. She wants me to do the drawing down the moon once a week so She can paint with me. It sounds éxiting. I think it could be good for me to do that. I have when through all my art and drawings, fixed what can be fixed, saved what is worth saving and throwed away the rest. Now I am drawing, drinking pineaple juice. I have been throwing away loads of stuff done some cleansing and newmoon rituals as well this week.
