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[camillanightshade]

I am taking down my art from the gallery today. It is depressing that not much visitors came and I sold nothing. I really needed the money. I suck apparently or most likely other people suck dont appriciate my art. I will have my art on onlinegallerys instead. I hope that will be more successful. Okay I should be more happy and grateful for given the ability to have an artshow. I am grateful I just expected much more visitors and get atleast some paintings sold. But I suppose that is to much to ask for. I know it isnt The Gods fault(It never is) i didnt get more success, cause I just hear things in my head at times that I thought was real and from them. But I gotta wonder if some of them, arent playing with me, taking advantage of my vulnerability, to make me do anything to get success in my art. It is much mental stress to be going through this. I am so stupid, so dumb thinking, believing just cause I gave myself totally to Lugh I would get success, it didnt work, but I am sure he was amused and had fun of this stupid clumbsy foolish girl that thinks she is an artist gave herself to him.

Comments

[emberleo]

*hugs* The art world is never easy for anyone. You're not somehow worse than normal in this respect.

The important thing is to keep moving, even if it's small steps, rather than to hold still with fear and then make a huge, risky leap, and then hold still again.

*hugsagain*

I don't know about your area, but for the style of art I've seen you do and what I've seen where I live, I'd expect Coffee Houses to be a better venue than traditional art galleries.

-E-

[camillanightshade]

Thanks Ember, for kind uplifting words. I will keep moving. hugs