artist nerves

[camillanightshade]

artist nerves
frustration inability to move get things done
inability to finish my art inability to be around others
i am a disaster, a failure soon the world will see it too.

nauseus, anxious panicy
stressed out pressure from myself
to make the most of this opportunity
to make the most of my art.

i hate my weak body and mind
who cant live up to my goals
to create perfect art
so it looks the way i want it

so i feel good about it
so people will want it
so i can feel that i too can accomplish stuff
so i can show the world what i am made off.

so if i have whined enough now
perhaps i can finish my art now
i am so late
why i am always so fricking late
doing things in the last minutes

cause the other stuff i made wasnt good enough
nothing i feel like i wanna show to others
so i tore it apart
garbage is what it was

sometimes feel like i wanna throw myself into the garbage bin too.