I may get hired again... if I dont get something else better.

[camillanightshade]

Today after yesterdays joy of getting fired I am thinking more about the consequences and stuff. It still feels good with freedom, a bit anxious about the fiancial stuff. I went to my workplace to get to give a paper about my illness from the doctor. I had hoped he wouldnt be there, cause I feared an huge fight. But he was there but he was kind, we spoke a bit. He wished me speedy recovery. That I would get well, find myself be happy again. That made me smile. It was sweet of him to say that. I took my stuff and he said I should call him when I was fully recovered, when I could work well again. I said he probably need me later to the summer others have vacations. He was like maybe you just need to rest a few months, so wonderful to do that. We shoke hands, I said goodbye to them.

When I waited at the busstop i called the lady at the agency and told her about the meeting. I asked if it would be possible to renew the contract, if I would get a job there or if has to pay full salary for me. She would look it up if it would was possible if he would want me then, (or I want to work there, but I didnt say that, cause it would sound like I dont want a job, just wanna live on the wellfare, which is awful in many peoples eyes).

I am not sure if my boss is honest or not. It is good to know I can come back one day. If I dont get any other job, if everything else fails. It isnt many work to apply to, and people are gettiung fired often here, so it is hard for many. But I feel good about dont have any work now. Right now I feel a bit confused about working or more likely I dont feel like I can handle any work right now. My focus now is on getting better healthier and loose weight. Cause I know if i lost 50-60 lbs I would feel much better both mentally, emotinally and psycically. I would feel stronger more able to do stuff and that would make me happier. And it would be easier to work then. And it would be easier for me to continue staying away from sugar then. There is no excuse now that I cant exercise, do yoga or art now that I am home all day. I will work much on my art as I have these last few days. My art is something that has been neglected as I have been working much. I have artshow soon and I will do my best to make it a good one.

Comments

hope it goes well

[windylowlands]

all of that sound like good things to aim for. you will get there... seems like you have a great deal of inner strength.
hugs and best wishes
Rochelle

Re: hope it goes well

[camillanightshade]

Thanks, I do my best to stay strong. hugs

congratulations

[ex_brynhild23]

Sounds like things are looking brighter, and congratulations on requiring more of yourself, stepping up to the plate, and taking actions with little steps of progress. Exactly what I wanted to see from you. Plenty of people, myself included, live on disability and have a happy life. There's no shame in that. Since fitness is your goal, may I suggest group exercise classes (like spinning or zumba) if your gym has them. They're addicting in a good way, you meet new people and it's a lot of fun. Many gyms offer yoga classes in addition to your home practice. Weight training is a good idea, and many fitness clubs have classes in kickboxing as well as various types of martial arts. The best of luck to you and congratulations again for taking your first steps onto solid ground. Keep up the good work. I'll be watching.

Re: congratulations

[camillanightshade]

Thanks, I am not disability yet, it is a long process of getting that. just unemployed. I would prefere that you take your concerns and annoyance over me to me directly even if i may not answer. Instead of bugging my bestfriend. Capische!

[jensurvivor]

I see now why you were implying that you have a chance to get your old job back. It's good to have options.