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Nov. 1st, 2011 06:21 pmI was in Hills of Brosarp at sunday, I have had dreams about ravens, eagles all week and hanging dead animals behind a wall to my workplace, the birds was in different dreams.I did my samhain rituals there and did the channeling that I was asked too. It went well. it felt scary to do rituals in the forests under the dark clouds. I felt anxious that it would become rain or thunder, or that I would be so lost after the trance that I wouldnt find my way back, or someone would harm me. All of that was just fears, The Lady spoke gentle to me, and I did the invocations right after the samhain ritual. I got some advices, She mentioned some improvement She wanted to see. Nothing bad, I just need to get things done more lol. I can need a kick in my butt at times:)
After the channeling She let go halvways where She more sitting next to me then being within me, I saw that the dark clouds were gone, it sunny, i could see the sky again. I got another vision about a wolf. He grabbed my arm and runaway with me. I see a kitten in a net, it was so unhappy, and wounded in the face, but I was unable to come to her aid. I felt connected to her. Either way the wolf took me to a bonfire where there were many wolves and domestic dogs. They gathered around me, they were very upset, barked and groweled alot before they attacked, they attack a coat I was wearing, I got it of me quickly, watched the dogs and wolves tear it apart. I was naken and wounded, I took a bath in a lake swum with beavers. One of them layed on my tummy, it was so cute. Then I came back to myself. It must been through some change or transformation i think.
I havent had any energy to do much this week, then working took a cleansing bath yesterday. It is much stress at work, my boss is more mean then usual these past weeks. Sometimes I ask myself how more shall I take, how much more shall I suffer there before i get the final nervous breakdon or the physcosis will take over. Is it really worth those 2400$ I have when tax is payed, it is getting harder, but I so want to travel, I so want take the art courses etc, So so far I am hangin in there. I ask the Ladies for strength and help alot, doing yoga so much is affecting me as well. It is hard to get up early to do the ashtanga yoga each day before work. The kundalini yoga was on the throat chakra at october so it was pretty bad, but I made it. Sure I could have put my foot down and stopped but I want to be well one day.
After the channeling She let go halvways where She more sitting next to me then being within me, I saw that the dark clouds were gone, it sunny, i could see the sky again. I got another vision about a wolf. He grabbed my arm and runaway with me. I see a kitten in a net, it was so unhappy, and wounded in the face, but I was unable to come to her aid. I felt connected to her. Either way the wolf took me to a bonfire where there were many wolves and domestic dogs. They gathered around me, they were very upset, barked and groweled alot before they attacked, they attack a coat I was wearing, I got it of me quickly, watched the dogs and wolves tear it apart. I was naken and wounded, I took a bath in a lake swum with beavers. One of them layed on my tummy, it was so cute. Then I came back to myself. It must been through some change or transformation i think.
I havent had any energy to do much this week, then working took a cleansing bath yesterday. It is much stress at work, my boss is more mean then usual these past weeks. Sometimes I ask myself how more shall I take, how much more shall I suffer there before i get the final nervous breakdon or the physcosis will take over. Is it really worth those 2400$ I have when tax is payed, it is getting harder, but I so want to travel, I so want take the art courses etc, So so far I am hangin in there. I ask the Ladies for strength and help alot, doing yoga so much is affecting me as well. It is hard to get up early to do the ashtanga yoga each day before work. The kundalini yoga was on the throat chakra at october so it was pretty bad, but I made it. Sure I could have put my foot down and stopped but I want to be well one day.
