I channelled today

I have been very anxious, frustrated as well as panicy and angry the past few weeks. It got worser the closer it came to the actual channeling day. last night i wasnt able to sleep at all, write a lot, was annoyed and determent to not give in. I was finished early at work. Went home ate fresh berries with vanilla icecream to calm down,to prepare for the channeling 5 hours later. I drew some unicorns on sketch pad that i will paint and write artist and creative, inspiring affirmations on. I will draw other figures as well, my goal is that the creature should look strong, confident like no one shall oppress me/I will never surrender...

I took a cleansing bath, vented all my thoughts to the Morrigan, told Her that I was grateful for all that I had been given. After a while I got dressed, ttook the channeling dress I have, put on the rosary necklace I have devoted for Her. Then I invoked Her. She possessed me pretty fast, it felt heavy as She entered but not painful. It took a while before I could hear clearly, and she had taken over. I was conscious so that we could talk. Her energy was strong and friendly, loving, She wanted us to continue like we have done so far with yoga, nature rituals. I am getting many more free years up I saw the number scroll until ten came up, with a few changes. I should do stuff cause I wanted it not cause I felt forced to it, that part was very clear, like She really wanted me to understand that. It feels great that it is more flexible. Cause sure I love to dance around, do rituals  in the nature to honor Her, but i prefere sunshine, it was hard for me to be positive about it last winter, when it was either snowing or raining on the actual day. I didn´t feel like I was allowed to go on a day with better wheather. I am asked to channel 4 times a year for many years. That is wonderful cause i have beeen anxious that it would be every month again or even worse every week. 4 times a year feels great, very relaxed, cause it is good to talk to Her like this when I am carrying Her, I enjoy that, I just dont wanna carry Her every week or every month, i got to pick the dates for channeling as well. I felt so happy and wanted to give something back that I gladly choose to channel around Samhain and 6 january which is Her day as well She seemerd pleased with that.. and the other two times during the summer time. The next time for me to channel this year is in september.

I asked about other stuff, art and other gods as well. I have gotten the right impression of Lugh- that he just wants to be my friend, just hang around with me. Thor likes to visit me. Artemis, Ceridwen arent interested in being with me, do art with me. I have gotten that impression but wasnt sure and have been sad over it called on the Ladies with no luck. It have been confusing.and depressing. Rhiannon and Brigid wants to help me, but i have to come to them. I will gladly do that. I could ask Her to be present when I was with cernunnus so it wouldnt be out of controle so much. It feels good to talk to Her about everything and get answérs as well, especially when it is stuff that are hard to understand/accept, and about other gods, goddesses stuff can be confusing. About my art it was the same as earlier, but I feel more okay about it. Morgana had the same view on my art as She did, it could be much worser, they could stand in my way, sabotage my artcareer which I have had nightmares about that.

I will double check what I heared with my tarot cards at the weekend.