Visits from my relatives

[camillanightshade]

My aunts and onkels came yesterday to my home, so I went there as well. It was nice to talk to my relatives although it was harder then usual to express myself. And they arent that interested in what I do and dont do. Even if it was nice I felt pretty much aloof and lonely. I feel pretty much of a failure among them their kids my cousins are all successful people. No one said anything or even made it sound like that either. It is more that what I do, what I am interested in arent of value in their eyes if it doesnt make money.  Nothing of what I do makes money but it makes me feel good, that is whats important for me.  They probably feel that is wrong that I went to UK and not visit them instead. I will visit them one day, but sometimes one need to prioritize one self and not the relatives. It is not that I have so to talk to them about, so it wouldnt be that fun in the long run i am afraid. Perhaps it would be different if I came to visit them. And if I did get a good job and got some art sold.