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[camillanightshade]

It seems like I wont be getting any money for my bills and living next week. I have cried so much. Prayed the rosary. Called people. So now I can just pray and wait. It is awful. It is hard to not feel that this delaying is gods will, no name mentioned. To teach me a lesson, to bring me on my knees, well it worked. But I will never go to him(Cernunnus) begging, pleading I will not give him that joy. I pleaded and begged The Morrigan and Morgana to help me. It is hard to deal with this. Not getting money i need for rent, bills, living. It gives me so much anxiety, panicattacks. I am screwed up. My exboss isnt the most willing to get me those papers I need. I will call socialwelfare tomorrow when they have phone time. See if they are willing to help me until i get unemployments money. It is unfair and so not what I needed now. Sorry I cant stop crying. It wouldnt surprise me if this act of some god that wanna teach me a lesson. The sun shing it warm and nice but I am unable to get out the past few days. The pain with is too bad. No I need to wait for papers thaT will send.

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[jensurvivor]

I suspect the wheels of bureaucracy are just turning too slowly. Do you really think your former boss has reason to withold the papers out of vindictiveness? Just a note that I had good luck once asking Thor for justice in a case like this once.

[camillanightshade]

I am sure you are right. Thanks I will try to stay positive. It just takes time. Itt is always hard to be waiting. We my exboss know how anxious I am and probably enjous triggering me. Many people seem to enjoy us who are mentally ill. Then when we run amok go crazy we are the bad ones, cause what others did doesnt matter.

[jensurvivor]

I hope it comes soon. Seems like he would be in the wrong for holding back termination papers?

[camillanightshade]

Thanks, if he could he would. But it is all sorted out now. Not by him but I called the salaryoffice and the union so it got fixed.

[jensurvivor]

That's good to hear.