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[camillanightshade]

It went well at the vernissage on my artshow yesterday. It came more people on this vernisssage then the one in fall. I do feel that people dont seem to be that interested in my art. It has cost me much this time to have the artshow, so i really hope to get some stuff sold. These past weeks i have been home, my anxiety and panic level has been so bad that i have had trouble to get things done, paint, be outdoors has seem like an impossible thing tó do. Yet I did it, but I hade to drink very much energydrinks, have sweets, sleep to manage. Which didnt make my issues better, frankly the opposite. So it was like an bad circle, but now it is over. i can focus on other stuff like getting a new job, loose weight, keep working on my art. Pictures are coming up on the galleries and fb in a few days.

I am very exhausted now but happy it is over for this time. I am happy that i managed to do many new paintings. I will having my from now on, in online galleries. I will uppdate it there as well as have my art on my facebook, on Jim. I will go decaff, as off sugar again. I think The lasies may have pushed me through this well as increased my anxiety and panic during this past weeks too make me stronger. Better at at handling my issues during stress and pressure. to be able to hear Them a bit during meditation has been especially since I have seen invocations and such that made Her seen more dark, harsh which has been triggering. But now matrer how shitty it was I made it all the way. These past few week I also become more effective and active as animal activist which is great. I need that. The animals needs me.