Thoughts about my illness

[camillanightshade]

I have been using the leopard jaspis and kundalini for depressed and bipolar anxiety dissorder for a week, I feel much better. So whatever I have is under controle now, but then again I havent felt triggered by stress, rage either. I have gotten an appointment to a shrink on wednesday. I will write down everything I feel experience during stress, panic anxiety stuff. So that I wont forget anything. Cause it is when I am overloaded with stress, when I am overwhealmed, it is hard to cope with everyday stuff my illness gets free/rules me. As long as I do yoga and meditation, art I am somewhat protected, but I have notice that the illnes and stress gets stronger, and loads of stuff are coming up with kundalini chakra yoga. So it will be good for me to have someone to talk to, about the stressful, darker things. My Patroness The Morrigu, is One who challenge us to face pain, illness, fears, darkness whatever that is in our way for us to be strong and healthy. I have heard I may never get really healthy, but loads of stuff can get better. Like coping with stuff, stress, not escape. When I have done online tests It seems like I am depressed, somewhat manic and anxious. But not always. I am getting heathier but since my theraphy is yoga- kundalini for both chakras and depression, bipolar, panic anxiety, herbs and stones. It takes time, it will be good to have someone to talk too. In a way dont see that I need it. But I will be open, if it can help preventing those dark episodes I had two weeks ago, which seem to come more often, I would be happy and grateful.

Comments

[jensurvivor]

Im really happy that you have an appointment! It sounded like it was going to take a lot longer than it has. I hope you can get along well.

[camillanightshade]

Yeah, It could have but I got turned down from the hospital last week, wasnt seen as sick enough. I should have said I was suicidal at my worst, but it feels like I have used it too much in the past. It shouldnt be a way got my way. So I was adviced to call a care center. So I did, it was an answering machine so I said what I needed help with, my issues etc, gave them my number. A shrink called me at monday, said she had gotten my message. So I got an appointment. So we will see what happens.