Travel plans

[camillanightshade]

I am having many thougths about my journey in May. Even if the much of the trip is a pilgrimage, connnect to The Goddesses, my path with Them as a witch and priestess. I am going to do stuff that is just for my own like goint to rock clubs on the friday night in London, and visit  all witchstores in both London and Glastonbury and buy some stuff I want in them. Not everything I want, but I will buy something, If I dont buy stuff I want or go to the rock club, are having fun in a way that doesnt involve the Gods, I would be sad and feel that I am doing a huge sacrifice and would expect to get something huge in return. And as I have noticed earlier in other situations, where I have denied myself something for Their sake I havent gotten anything special if anything at all. Often that have made me very depressed and left me feeling Iike I give and give without getting anything myself. I am sure that works for some people, not me. And yes I would feel that no matter if choose it or not by myself. It is very possible that The Gods wants me to have some fun- go to rock clubs, do some shopping.  I wont ask for permission, it is my money, and my life. Of course it will be loads fun and exiting to visit Madrons well at Cornwall, Glastonbury-Isle of avalon, visit the Goddess temples, Chalice hill, Tor and the wells, do the meditaive walks, pilgrimages after the nature of avalon bóoks I have. That is another kind of fun- more spiritual. To feel good i need the both kinds of fun. And deny myself stuff that I assume They requests/or they request makes me depressed feeling like a serf, which is so unneccessarry. It is not my wish to be a fulltime/24/7 kind of servant. Serveral of the gods likes to be with me more than i like to be with them. I am still more interested in hearing what the Goddesses has to say then The Male Gods have to say.  I am more easily offended and likely to see it as they wanna oppress me. I rarely see it as They are joking with me. But I They say it, Then it is up to me to believe Them. I know what triggers my panic so I will take that in consideration, so that should be fine. i am a bit concerned about the tests I will be put through. I would wish there werent any tests, but that would to ask for too much, the gods must have some fun as well. Hmm that is probably not the right way to see it, that they are doing it to have fun with me, it is too teach me, make me stronger I know, not much comforting though. But I am used to it. The worst thing is usualy my overactive mind, my panic, that makes it hard for me to be around others, and of course my paranoid fears of what may happen to me, what They will do to me , put me through. That can be so hard that I cant think logic. Although drawing, writing and walking in the nature helps me get more controle of it. So that is what I will do much. I hope the wheather will be great and that the trains wont cost more then I expect. I hope nothing bad will happen to me I will do some strong protection shield and magic spells for it. I am a bit scared of being attacked, assulted, robbed, loose my money and passport. So I hope and pray that, that wont be happening. I will be careful and hide my stuff.

It seemed like It would be hard to get Wales with going to Madrons well. Cause Cornwall is in the south of England and it is along distance between Cornwall and Wales. The tarot reading for cornwall Madrons Well where very positive, I wasnt surprised when The Morrigan seemed to want me to come there, I have dreamed about that place, found train that wasnt to expensive. About 6 hours from London. I will have a night out there on friday the  day I come to London, will also go to witchstores, the british museum. I will going to Madrons well on saturday morning, will be at the well around 3pm.  So I will be walking there do some ritual then go to the Youth Hostel stay there for the night. On the sunday I am going to take the train to Abersgavenny in South Wales as I have been asked to do. I have been a bit hesitating about going to Wales at all cause I will be there pretty late like 4.30 pm. Then I will check in at the backpackers hostel. After that I will be walking for hours, do some rituals perhaps. Ok I can still walk for 4 hours before it is dark. So pehaps it is not in vain. And I will take a long walk there on monday morning before I am going to Glastonbury. So it could be pretty cool, I am hoping that I will get the cheapest train fares and such. And it was my plan to stay in Wales as well. Much time on the train, I did consider night train but then it was much expensive and I would have to wait for 2-3 on a train in the middle of the night, hmm not so tempting, I rather have bed to sleep in, and leave early in the mornings. I am traveling to see and experience stuff, not just shopping. I will be at Glastonbury monday afternoon.There is much to see and experience in Glastonbury and its outdoor also called the physical nature of Avalon, Isle of Avalon. So that will be exiting. I will celebrate the fullmoon the 17th on the tuesday in the Goddess temple as well as doing something outside. I will probably visit the Goddess temple  all three days, to meditate and pray there. I have yearned for it for years. They have serveral of witch stores as well there. On thursday that week, I am going to Stonehenge, will take a Stonge tour from Salisbury and walk around the stones, meditate.  It may be too many people there too do some ritual, but meditation sense the energies is always possible,  After being on Stonehenge a couple of hours I will take the train back to London. The day after on the friday I will fly back to Copenhagen then taking the train home.

Comments

[jensurvivor]

I'm pretty sure the gods will be okay with you going to nightclubs. I'll try to track down some recommendations. I like your black horse icon...

[camillanightshade]

Thanks