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[camillanightshade]

These past weeks I have been binging so much, have felt so much presence, gotten demands that advices had delusions. So it have been a hard month for me. It was awesome to talk to the Lady on friday night through Jen. Are planing my journey in may, where to go, what to bring with me. I have serveral options, I will do some spells, be careful, aware. I will be tested said The Morrigan, dont know what kind of test it is.  Trying to not worry about it. I am happy that I can paint again, I suppose I could I have done it all the time, I did some with Artemis and Cernunnus. But often my panic would get very strong and I had to stop. I wasnt strong enough to stand up for myself all days. I will do use divination more to see what is really demands what are suggestions what is from me, what is from them. I do it sometimes, but in no way often enough. Feel a bit sad today, but I will be ok, I just need to get use to idea.