Artshow in March 2/3-22/3 2013

[camillanightshade]

I will have an artshow in march at the same place as last year. March and April are popular artmonths, so i feel honored that they want me there again. i feel humble and grateful for the kindness and patience from those who owns the galleri. I could split it up on serveral months. Which is awesome for me who is so much debts. I havwnt been able to draw, paint for months, I have tried much. The workmates and my family hasnt been supportive of this cause it costs far too much. I would sell anything being so negative, annoying the shit out of me. My mum even tried to make it sound like I was harming her with this so redicules. What should she do with me? I was like mum I am adoult, it is my lie I do want like it or not. I dont care, no one is gonna stop me from doing what I want, making my dreams come true. I said it very calm both today and last weekend when it came up. It was hard to not act out on her angrily.

They dont understand the half of my issues. I have tried to explain it but no success. I should see them much less but get so much guiltfeelings if I dont see her once a week. I havent speaking up so much for my art, my dreams before. I am painting much these days, it will make me feel better. It is easier to handle life, people then. I am happy to be isolatéd, cause it is easier for me to recover then.

Comments

[jensurvivor]

Good for you for standing up for yourself.

[camillanightshade]

Thanks, she stopped quickly saying that I made her sick, when i didnt fall for the emotional blackmail. Just bsticked to my guns.

[windylowlands]

I wish I could do that. Emotional blackmail is my nemesis.
Rochelle

Hi That is Good News

[windylowlands]

Hi You sound like you handled the criticism very well, and I hope this experience of getting another artshow on the calendar is going to be valuable, I hope that the momentary / long-term stresses become a bit easier to handle. Congratulations on staying calm when talking to your family, it is admirable that you are still trying to keep in touch with them and keep them in your life. I know that you are a strong person, and have been so in spite of little support in many hard times. Sincere wishes and hopes for you Camilla, hope it all goes well.
hugs,
Rochelle

Re: Hi That is Good News

[camillanightshade]

Thanks Rochelle. I hope so too. Well without my family i would be more lonely, and the guilt would kill me. I know they care in their own ways about me.