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[camillanightshade]

I am a bit lost, a bit overwhealmed by stuff. It bothers me that the Goddesses seem to be so persistent in getting my go to Ireland this year, now in the beginning of June. I have heard it is the best for me. Perhaps it is, I dont know. I do feel that I rather go to Canada. I am not happy about being told what to do,  where to travel. I am too chickened to do what I feel like, I am too depending on Her help and guidance. If I piss Her of too much, she may not help me. Or there can be some other reason why it is so important that I came to Ireland. I can afford to go there. Canada is more expesive but I am putting away money for that. Soon I can go there, and be in a better shape. It is not that I dont wanna go to Ireland at all, it is more that I get a bit tensed if They are bóssy. I found out yesterday that there is a healing on the fullmoon day 4 june at the Goddess temple. I understood why The Goddesses were so persistent in me getting there. Perhaps that could help me. It wont hurt.  Feeling like I am walking on the edges of insanity all the time, although some days are better, other worse.  My issues with stress are getting worse, but something with drives me further. My fantazies are getting stronger, I see it  as fantasies from someone with a boring work, stressed and the fantasy gives me some relief, the bad with it, is that it feels like they have their own will, and it involves gods that I dont follow- whom I find either terryfying, or fascinating. Which makes me feel paranoid cause it can attract gods I dont really want contacts with. So I did a healing of my illness during the fullmoon, I spent most of easter weekend writing, so much needed to expressed, sorted out, cleared up. It feels clearer now. Too bad it took so long time, no time left for my art. I am planning my trip and what i will do there. I am not sure which is est go on guided tours-yes I will see more but no privacy to explore and do rituals on my own. I like to paint as well. All I know so far is that I will go to Kildare and Emain Macha in  Ireland. I wanna go to cliffs of Moher which sounds like cliffs of the Mother in my ears. Rings of kerrs  is 230 kilometers which is far to long for me to walk or bike would be so scared- what I got so lost unable to find my way back or what if the bike broke in the middle of nowhere, not sure if I wanna put myself through that,

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[emberleo]

I may be biased, having had far more access to Canada than Ireland over the years, but I would LOVE to go to Ireland!

Regardless of where They want you to go, never forget that if They want you do something expensive, They get to line up the resources to make it happen BEFORE you do it.

-E-

[camillanightshade]

Thanks, I will keep that in mind. I do have a job, so I do have resources for going to Ireland. It cant afford going to Canada if something expensive unexpected may happen. I do look for into travel to Ireland, and Glastonbury, visit the magical places, do some shopping in the witchstores.

[jensurvivor]

It might help to make it clear in your better moments what sort of relationship you want to have with the Gods you don't follow (or no relationship at all), and explain to Them your situation, so you can all be on the same page.

[jensurvivor]

There are probably guided tours of the Ring of Kerry, as well as lots of people in the summer. Its a pretty popular destination. You can't really go wrong going anywhere in Ireland (if you are going to Emain Macha, avoid Orange Day) but the west coast is going to have more of an older lifestyle.

[jensurvivor]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Orange_Walk

[camillanightshade]

There are indeed mmany guided tours in Ireland to ring of Kerry as well as of Galway-Connemara in west which sounds lovely I may go there as well. I think I would get lost easily in Ireland I can get lost in very small villages as long it is a new place, lol.

[camillanightshade]

Yeah, I will do that thanks. I think that it is neccessarry to do that. Then it is easier for me to which is real too and which is just from myself.

[emberleo]

Sounds great :)

-E-