A shocking change at work

[camillanightshade]

Just when I thought it was getting a bit better at work. my workmate Kevin is most likely getting fired. His hours are being cut down to part time- 20 hours a week. That sucks, i feel sorry for him. i am so angry and anxious over this. It is so bad, It will be much more hard work for me. And much heavier cause I will have too do it  all by myself now. I will be working alone with my boss whom I mostly cant stand. Without Kevin I wouldnt have stayed this long. Cause he helps me out with everything. If he was singel I would have asked him out for a date long time ago. I am not in love with him. He is just such nice guy, loves cats, rock, goth music, openminded, fun. He is always so positive, has the craziest ideas. I hope he will get a better job. i am afraid i wont be getting any better job, but really i cant say that cause I havent been looking much either. Perhaps it wont be so bad, my boss wouldnt wanna loose me as well. So he probably wont push me to hard.  I just cant stand his sick humor, his moodiness,his attitude. This is such a shock for me. I will be looking for other work, hopefully I will get another one. Another thing I fear is that with Kevin not being at work anymore is that Fredrick my boss´s friend is gonna work there sometimes, visiting more. Fredrik is a real jerk, says mean things, I just wanna tell him to go xxxx, i stand him even less then my boss. The possibility of having to work with both of them perhaps feels like a nightmare.

I have had urges about that something was going on, that something huge would happen in a negative way for me. The tarotcards told me that in the reading, i feared i would get fired, i would have prefored that. I am overeacting, cause i am stronger than that, i can handle it. I just need to stand my ground, stand up for myself. I will refuse to carry stuff that is too heavy for me. For sure one can see this as a way to truly improve myself, show the world what I am made of by being there on my own without Kevin. Without a friend. I am not really interested in that. To be honest I now haven less interest in being there. But then on the other hand I need the money, so should make the best of my options. Not waiste it cause my work mate is getting fired, and I cant stand the work. I think I will handle it at most 1 month without Kevin, if he is there only parttime more. I really shouldnt base my life and my decision on other peoples actions.

 

Comments

[jensurvivor]

I hope you can stay in touch with Kevin, he sounds like a good friend. Have you talked to him about it? He might appreciate support.

Do try to keep in mind that this is about the economy. That is the only thing it's about. Nothing Kevid did or that you did. Stick to your limits, and yes, look for other work.

[camillanightshade]

I will try, not sure if he wants that. I am being very supportive at work and we share everything there. Yeah it is all about the economy but I dont know if I really believe my boss words about it though. Cause having one fulltime employee as baker is not much for a bakery, he only pays 27% of my salary cause of my depression- panic attacks which are making me work slower, unable to handle too much stress not that it is being taken in consideration. That is alright I just need to stand up for myself, stick to my limits, then it will be fine.

[jensurvivor]

are you still not getting paid for overtime?

[camillanightshade]

No, I am not. I have been able to go home earlier a couple of times. The union cant do anything cause I wasnt asked to stay later. I just couldnt get finished in time with so much to do.