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[camillanightshade]

I havent done much yoga since the middle of december. I think I needed this break from it. I have felt about about this month, felt that I let Her down and, myself down so I have meditated and done some readings I have also been praying wanted to talk to Her. I havent heard anything but I felt her presence, that it is alright. I will start over in february just focus on astanga yoga and and kundalini for my anxiety, panicattacks depression this month. Will start with yoga for the basechakra next month. I was hoping to be channeling 6 january, but it didnt work. I think i was/am in too bad shape mentally for that. I will do it another time. I miss Her, hearing Her, but soon I will hear Her and channel Her. My art time is improving I have painted and draw a bit every day some days serveral hours for ten days, YAY. i am writing on my book as well. During the day i think about my art problem, how to make my art better and plots in my story rather than focus on how much i hate my life, hate my work etc. I feel that my mood is improving cause of focus on my art and my story.