New moon in hills of Brosarp
Jul. 2nd, 2011 02:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
camillanightshadeIt took me forever to get to the Hills and woods of Brosarp yesterday, cause I hade to wait for some stuff at work that were delayed. i was like so annoyed over that. But it was nothing I could do. Then my stuff came and i could finished the pasta sallads. Then the bus was broken I had to wait for the next one to get to the train. I was so angry and frustrated within, i didnt show anything of course. I know these things happen, nothing to be pissed about. Anyway finally at 1 pm i was at the hills. 2 hours later then I had expected. I was annoyed that i would get 2 hours less in the nature. As soon as I came out there all anger and frustration just left me. I just smelled the flowers, herbs enjoyed the greenery. I called upon the Ladies to join me. I found serveral herbs like meadows sweets, meadow carnation, mulleins, red clover on the hills. I walked for 1 ½ hour.
Then I went into the woods. I found a lovely spot in there where the road split up in five tiny roads like a pentagram. A really cool crossroads. I poured out some of my blood on a trees root and some grape juice. Then I danced around praised and chanted the Goddesses names. I could feel the Ladies energies, I heard some words. I had some issues from the past with channeling that needed to be solved. They would want me to come out to the woods there more regulary. That was awesome. I felt so intune with them and the earth, the woods. Just like I did in Glastonbury and at Madrons well. I said some greetings to Cernunnus, lugh and Thor as well, as I have been asked to do . Then I danced around a bit more. After my ritual I walked back, I found some honeysuckle and violets that I gathered . After that I walked then in that part of brosarp forest I got lost in october last year. Funny things i remembered, like there was the lake i lost direction of,,, there was the road with those three where the road I was on that werent on a map...There was the valley where I should turn right to get into the village not left... I hadnt been walking there since I got lost last year, during the challenge.
That was pretty.cool. I found Elderflowers that i gathered. My legs was very tired and swollen. I bought some coke and á candybar in the store. Then got to the bus station. It started to rain. I thought about what I had heard. I will try to get there more often to the hills of Brosarp. When I got home I made a tincture essences of honeysuckle and larch. Today I have been writing much, I have also been meditating on my past channelingd and the gods I channeled, it is an resistance in me to do it. Nothing unusual, if I feel good I am usually not that much for digging in stuff that are painful, i had done some of it will meditate on it more after my kundalini yoga. I will talk to the Morrigan about it, serveral parts of it involves her, some disturbing pictures that I have supressed instead of asking her about it, what it means. An image from the gods can mean so many things. Like some visions i had serveral years ago felt so terrible that I shivered of fear, grovel at Her feet doesnt seem that bad now. I may not like it, find it disturbing, but it dóesnt give me the creeps anymore. TheLady looks for into that I will channel again at the 12 july. I hope It will be alright. She has promised to take it easy with me, like we can try serveral days if i am not able to open myself totally for Her at the 12 july. That feels comforting. I do feel more comortable with Her and the channeling now, yeah I know it is easy to say now that I havent done it for a year. I feel happy to soon spend more time with Ceridwen, I havent done much art for a very long time, it always feels better and so inspiring to do it with Her.
Then I went into the woods. I found a lovely spot in there where the road split up in five tiny roads like a pentagram. A really cool crossroads. I poured out some of my blood on a trees root and some grape juice. Then I danced around praised and chanted the Goddesses names. I could feel the Ladies energies, I heard some words. I had some issues from the past with channeling that needed to be solved. They would want me to come out to the woods there more regulary. That was awesome. I felt so intune with them and the earth, the woods. Just like I did in Glastonbury and at Madrons well. I said some greetings to Cernunnus, lugh and Thor as well, as I have been asked to do . Then I danced around a bit more. After my ritual I walked back, I found some honeysuckle and violets that I gathered . After that I walked then in that part of brosarp forest I got lost in october last year. Funny things i remembered, like there was the lake i lost direction of,,, there was the road with those three where the road I was on that werent on a map...There was the valley where I should turn right to get into the village not left... I hadnt been walking there since I got lost last year, during the challenge.
That was pretty.cool. I found Elderflowers that i gathered. My legs was very tired and swollen. I bought some coke and á candybar in the store. Then got to the bus station. It started to rain. I thought about what I had heard. I will try to get there more often to the hills of Brosarp. When I got home I made a tincture essences of honeysuckle and larch. Today I have been writing much, I have also been meditating on my past channelingd and the gods I channeled, it is an resistance in me to do it. Nothing unusual, if I feel good I am usually not that much for digging in stuff that are painful, i had done some of it will meditate on it more after my kundalini yoga. I will talk to the Morrigan about it, serveral parts of it involves her, some disturbing pictures that I have supressed instead of asking her about it, what it means. An image from the gods can mean so many things. Like some visions i had serveral years ago felt so terrible that I shivered of fear, grovel at Her feet doesnt seem that bad now. I may not like it, find it disturbing, but it dóesnt give me the creeps anymore. TheLady looks for into that I will channel again at the 12 july. I hope It will be alright. She has promised to take it easy with me, like we can try serveral days if i am not able to open myself totally for Her at the 12 july. That feels comforting. I do feel more comortable with Her and the channeling now, yeah I know it is easy to say now that I havent done it for a year. I feel happy to soon spend more time with Ceridwen, I havent done much art for a very long time, it always feels better and so inspiring to do it with Her.
